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Stella Reed

Van Gogh's Mistress

       
He sends me his ear in a box
Wrapped neatly in blood stained tissue
It lies, a decapitated lily
Deaf to my horror.
Fine red hairs sprout just above the lobe
Like a pubescent upper lip
Waiting to speak,
Waiting to curse me for my
Inability to return his obsession.

But there were nights
In his stodgy flat, the air
Thick with pipe smoke
Staining the Japanese prints
Hung haphazardly on the walls,
When holding close, I sang
To this ear, my lips,
My breath near enough
To tickle the freckled skin
And his hands like rusted wire
Wound through my hair.

Vincent, you said
God is in everything.
I search for him here,
In this piece of lifeless flesh:
Is that his reflection in the
Waxen sheen, or his
Thumbprint in the crusted
Blood left from grabbing at the
Cupped flesh as a school marm would,
Tugging you up from your crooked seat.

What strange sound
Must play now around your head
With no outer shell to
Filter the music of insanity,
The world's noise will
Carve your brain like a
Worm tunnelling through a tomato.

The diseased mouth of your love
Threatened to swallow me whole
And I, a two-faced woman -
Pity/Disgust,
Turn away from your turpentine kisses,
Color your canvas black,
Or red that escapes the prison of skin
The scarlet trickle from palm to elbow.
My mouth fills with the taste of iron
Till my very breath is gray as twilight
And liminal to a starry night.

Copyright © 1998 Stella Reed.

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